Dear Diary - Chapter 11
(Sunday, 10 July 2011 / 06:59 /
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Jojo's POV
Dear Diary,
4 months had passed and we're still strongly tied together. Thats right. Its been 4 months since Gikwang confessed to me and we got together. I'm still in a denial though, knowing that right now that I'm dating the school's ace. The boy who stole every girl's heart just by smiling or just by being himself. Some times, I asked him if I was good enough for him. Though we are so close, but still felt so far.
I could feel everyone's glares and their unsatisfied feeling. I'm not surprise though. Any decent person would wonder how would a girl like me, ends up with a guy like him.
"Jojo.. Jojo-ahh!"
I snapped. Oh God. I forgot I was on a date today. Gikwang was holding my hand and we were strolling around the park, like how our usual date would turn out. Just the kind of atmosphere I needed. "You were day dreaming again. Something on your mind?" he asked me.
I fake a smile and shook my head to avoid any worries that might occur to him. Still, I don't mind telling him how I really feel right? Well, its worth to try.
"Gikwang-ahh.."
"Nde?" he answered.
"Am I.. really the right one.. I mean.. umm.."
Somehow, the words couldn't get out off my lips. Its like something is preventing it from being said. Its too late to back out now since I've probably left Gikwang in total confusion right now. Breathe in.. breathe out.
"Whats wrong, yeobo?" Gikwang asked.
"Do I really deserve to be right by your side like this?"
"What are you talking about?"
"Didn't you notice everyone's stare the whole time when we're together. Its like our relationship is something that shouldn't have happened.."
Did I explained it too harsh.. 'cause after I led everything out, Gikwang was just.. speechless. I hope he's not mad.. Argh! Stupid Jojo! You shouldn't have been too honest. Argh, how I wish I could turn back time right now. Or just stuff my face into the ground like how an ostrich would react at a situation like this.
Suddenly, I felt my body was pulled closer to Gikwang. Oh, he pulled me closer. Silly me xD .
"So.. are you telling me that, during our date, the whole time we're together, you weren't really paying attention to the two of us," he said while looking into my eyes. I blushed and then thought for a second. He got a point there. Its like I'm giving him a new definition -.-
"Thats not the point, Gikwang-ahh," I pouted. He hugged me closer to him and kissed on top of my head. "Why are you so intimidated by what others say.. its their problem, not ours.." "but-" "Jojo-ahh"
The scene started getting serious after he cut off my words by his cute voice. You don't get to hear that everyday though.
"I like you.. no, I love you..If they have any problems about our relationship, then let them be. We don't need anyone's approval for this. Let us decide whats best for us, our future.."
His words hit me, like a bullet. How did he get so charismatic. Just looking into his face, at the perfect angle makes me fluttered. This side of Gikwang, is the reason why I fell in love with him in the first place. I hugged him back, trying to get rid of the tears that was falling from my eyes. But I'm sure he knew anyway, 'cause he hugged me even closer and whispered something in my ear.
"I love you, Jojo-ahh. A lot.."
